My dearest Abigail,
We went for a walk the other day, and you rode your bike like you usually do. You would ride circles around us and sometimes ride fast to the end of the sidewalk and then wait for us to catch up...like you usually do. When we reached to the entrance of our subdivision, I told you that you could ride the half-mile back home as fast as you wanted by yourself. You looked at me with disbelief and gave a surprised "Really?" I nodded my head and told you to watch for cars, and you started off towards home.
I started to second-guess why I had allowed you to go on by yourself as you got further and further away. You soon turned a small curve and was out of my sight, and all I could do was pray that God would protect you on your journey.
You were so proud of yourself as you sat next to your bike in the driveway waiting for us to meander home. You said "that made me feel like a grown-up girl". I smiled, but it broke my heart just a little. You are growing up. In a few short months, you will be starting school and will be out of my sight for a little bit every day...and I can assure you that I will always pray that God will protect you on your journey.
My Abby, the past few months have been a big turning point in your life, it seems. You are looking older, acting older, and even talking older. Sometimes I look at you and wonder when it all happened. I see a little change each day.
You have more energy than I could have ever imagined and a heart that is so kind and tender. You love people with everything in you. You are a natural born leader who makes friends within 30 seconds of getting to the playground, and you are usually very attentive to include Emma in your games with the kids your age.
This year, you have learned to climb on top of the monkey bars, do pull-ups, ride a bike without training wheels, hula-hoop the longest I have ever seen anyone do, read beginner books by yourself, climb to the tip-top of any tree (much to your mother's chagrin), whistle, snap, make your bed, call out your first song in church, and try everything on your plate at least once. Like I said, you are growing up on us.
But the main change we have seen in you this year is how tender your heart is. Recently, you and Emma had a few tiffs that left you pretty perturbed at her. After a short separation from each other, Emma decided to make amends, but you were still ticked off, so back into your bedroom you went. After an even longer separation, you came out with big tears streaming down your face and said, "Mommy, I told God that I was sorry." You apologized to Emma, and I haven't had another issue with you about that.
Your relationship with Nathan is unlike any we have seen. You two "get" each other and play together constantly. I never knew that you would be so close with him when there are 4 years between you. He looks at you with eyes brimming with love every time you come into the room, and he smiles the biggest smile when you look his way. You want so bad to be a mama to him and will daily ask if you can feed him a bottle or pick out the clothes he will wear for the day. You are such a big help with him...more than I even imagined you could be.
Your relationship with Emma is like most close sisters in age...you are the best of friends and rely on each other for so much...but you are definitely sisters and argue and pester one another like the best of them. I enjoy listening to your conversations with Emma. She looks up to you for so much, and you are such a great big sister to her most of the time. :)
You are sweet and loving and smart and beautiful and witty...and our baby girl. Although our baby girl has grown up to be a big 5 year old, and I can't believe that has already happened. We love you, Abigail Nicole. Happy 5th Birthday.