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Knee pads...well, they were definitely a must for the kid who spent a good portion of her skating experience on the ground in positions that caused my body to ache just looking at them. Only, knee pads were something that had never crossed my mind to purchase. When I was a kid, we fell, wiped some dirt into the blood and sported our roughed up knees until they were healed enough so that we could pick the scabs until they bled all over again. Yeah, those were the days.
But today...well, my kid needed knee pads. As a self-proclaimed mother of make-shift inventions, I figured that all I needed were a few rolled up washcloths and some packing tape. Voila! Redneck knee pads.
The kiddo had quite a few bruises and scrapes from today's adventure, and I sure as anything could have sworn that the tip of her tail bone would have been broken completely off and floating mindlessly around her lower half, but she seemed no worse for the wear. I give her credit though...it didn't matter how many times the kid fell, she always got right back up just a flailing as much as she did before. Graceful, she is not.
I came home exhausted today after spending most of the day at a cardiology appt (which was good, by the way) and a therapy appt for Nate. A good portion of the past couple of days has been spent getting a hotel and rental car for our upcoming trip to Houston and talking by phone with the neuroscience liason about the intricate details of the tests Nathan will have performed while we are there in a couple of weeks. Next week is full here with 2 therapy sessions and 2 specialty appointments before we head to Houston the following week...well yes, special needs parenting is a little different sometimes.
Abby and I were playing a game a few days back when she looked up and asked "Is Nathan going to die soon?" The question startled me and made me want to wake up from the nightmare that was overshadowing my life at that moment. I picked my heart up from the floor and carefully proceeded with "No hun. What makes you ask that?" She told me that a friend had told her a couple of weeks prior that since Nathan had a disease, it meant that he would die soon. Abby had carried that on her heart for 2 solid weeks before asking me...a burden I wouldn't wish on anyone, especially a 6 year old. She simply adores her little brother, and it hurts me to know that she is affected so profoundly by circumstances that most other children don't have to endure or think about. I explained to her that while Nathan's disease was indeed serious at times, we are trying everything we can so that he can be healthy. "The prayers, the medicine, the oxygen, the doctor appointments...we are doing all of that so that Nathan may live a very long life. Just look at how great he is doing right now!" was my ultimate answer to her. Yes, special needs parenting is a little different sometimes.
I have always had aspirations of homeschooling. I absolutely love seeing the little light bulb go off in the heads of my children when they learn something new and "get it". As Abby reached closer and closer to starting kindergarten, I realized that I had to throw in the white flag of defeat...I, the mom who thought she could conquer Mt. Rushmore and Mt. Laundry at the same time, could not "do it all". Taking Nathan back and forth to doctor appts and therapies was taxing on my physical and emotional strength, and after much prayer and deliberation, I realized that Abby needed to attend our local public elementary school. Thankfully, she has excelled in this environment more than I had ever realized could happen, and we are beyond happy with the arrangement.
Due to an increase in Nathan's therapy and doctor appts recently, I have had to take Emma with me some. My best friend keeps her sometimes during these times, but she has 3 kids of her own, and I often feel bad for asking her to keep Emma so often (even though she will scorn me for mentioning this). Emma is a typical self-centered 4 year old, so an appointment directed just to Nathan usually ends up in Emma acting out in some way...which more often than not, ends in me being especially exasperated with her. The past few appts have been especially tough for some reason. At a therapy session last week, she couldn't understand why she couldn't interact with the therapist like Nathan does. When she overheard that Nathan would start therapy in the pool the next week, she broke down in tears while sobbing "Nathan gets to do everything, and I don't get to do anything."
I completely understood what she was saying. Therapy is fun...new toys, one on one attention, constant praise at normal, mundane daily accomplishments...who wouldn't love therapy for a toddler? And she is right...even though I have tried desperately to spend more snuggle time and one-on-one time with her lately, she doesn't have anything that is for her. She is stuck in the middle...being pulled from appts to therapies to picking up her sister from school to other functions. She is being left in the chaotic dust that is currently our life. Yes, special needs parenting is different sometimes.
After some parental discussions and setting aside of appropriate funds, we have decided to enroll Emma in preschool next year. She will be attending at a church within walking distance from our house...the school that my best friend's son is also attending so that she can easily pick Emma up if needed. This is something she will love...something that is all her own. Emma is beyond excited already at this opportunity. And while I can't help but think that I am pushing her aside for someone else to "take care of", I also have a huge weight lifted off my shoulders.
#2: When taking a kid to the bathroom in the morning and discarding of the night's diaper, it is probably a good idea to put on some skivvies or the like on the kiddo before zipping the footy pajamas back up...especially if the muchkin is not doing exceptionally well at informing the caregiver before he proceeds to go in the #2 department. Having a kid come to you with a lump in the leg of the footy pajamas is not a good way to start the day...especially if he was been kneading the lump with his toes for a while.
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Okay, so the little hooligans were past exhausted when I snapped these pics, but it truly was a good weekend...errrrr, Saturday. Soooooo, my dear husband's evening puking adventure tonight reminded me that I hadn't mentioned our wonderful/half-wonderful/"i-just-wanna-be-home weekend" with some dear dear friends.
"I pee-pee on the potty! High five! I get a tweat!" is what I heard an extremely excited little boy say 7 times today. He also said that he wanted to wear his "Percy undies" tomorrow (a train from the Thomas the Tank series)...I'm not so sure yet. I'm thinking commando and pull-ups may be the way to go for a while. And for all you that have talked potty training talk with me in the past, yes, I said pull-ups. My all or nothing potty training rule has lost some steam in my old days. I'm just not ready to tackle this full on with another kiddo quite yet.
Another company that has been an incredible help to us lately has been Miracle Flights. This is a nonprofit charitable flight organization that helps families fly their sick children to areas of the country to receive medical care. A dear friend told us about this organization a few months ago, so I decided to contact them regarding our upcoming trip to Houston. There is a good bit of paperwork to fill out and some information needed from home doctors and from the doctors the child is visiting, confirming the diagnosis and reassuring that the child is medically capable of flying on commercial airlines, but the leg work is well worth it. The workers at Miracle Flights were a joy to communicate with...just so kind and thoughtful. We recently received our flight information from this company, confirming that they were able to get a flight for Nathan and myself for this upcoming trip to Texas. In the midst of everything, I am so very thankful that there are organizations like Miracle Flights. www.miracleflights.org
On the other news, Nathan is doing really well...really really well. The past month has been a wonderful month for him in regards to his physical health, and it has been a wonderful month in regards to our emotional health. During the fall and winter, so many things were happening back to back and sometimes it felt like we were in a constant state of mini-crisis mode. Starting in February, Nathan was relatively well, and our appt schedule was clear for an entire month. Oh, that month "off" of most things medical was exactly what we needed. It was a breath of fresh air and gave us the ability to hit the ground running again. It felt like a vacation of sorts.
March started his string of "spring cleaning" appts...the appts that he needs once a year to make sure that certain systems are all still A-okay. His ophthalmology appt was perfect. It also helps that his ophthalmologist is the mom of a kid in Abby's class, so we see her around school from time to time and catch up at different functions. She super sweet and a great doctor. Some more upcoming appts are cardiology, immunology and neurology...and then we have the week in Houston the first of April.
The little guy had a GI appt this morning, and it also went really well. He has gained a bit of weight and height and has made us and his GI docs very happy. I'm telling ya, he's had an awesome month! Due to some weird labs and other GI issues, we are doing a little work up for pancreatic insufficiency and treating for a probable small bowel bacterial overgrowth. He had lots of labs run today...LOTS! Like "9 viles of blood" worth...literally. We needed labs for his upcoming immuno appt, to check on his anemia issues, and to check some vitamin levels. We were able to see our favorite phlebotomist ("favorite" and "phlebotomist" should not be mentioned together, but alas, she is really great) and Nafey dude didn't cry at all. Through all that blood, he just sat there and sweetly ate his Dora fruit snacks while running commentary on the identity of the fruit snack that was about to be consumed. He's getting so big.
So, busy month ahead of us, but we are hopeful that Nathan will continue to do as well as he has been doing. It is so much fun to see him blossom into this fun little guy. This is truly a wonderful time in our lives.

She's in the 85% for height and 75% for weight for kids her age...our super tall, super muscular kiddo all the way. Aside from a battle with strep throat this week accompanied with egg-sized lymphnodes and the quintessential scarlet fever, she's healthy as a horse! Seriously healthy and growing like a weed.
She's doing outstanding in school! She earned a "Great Kindergarten Achievers" award a couple of weeks ago and was showcased on the morning announcements at school one day this week for the award. She beamed with pride and was just so cute up there standing next to their principal. 
She's simply a joy and sweet all around. A bit rambunctious at times, but full of compassion and love and beauty, inside and out.
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