My dearest Nathan,
You wrapped one arm around my neck and placed your opposite hand in mine as we danced around the kitchen to one of your favorite songs. The smile on your face as we twirled to the music is branded in my memory, right along with your infectious laughter each time I would dip your head back and spin you around. The grip of your tiny fingers around my hand was fierce, and you pulled me closer to you each time we would turn quickly, round and round and round until we were too dizzy to stand anymore.
Sitting against the wall and trying to regain our sense of balance, you leaned your precious head against my arm and said "you're my best friend." I plopped you in my lap, wrapped my arms around your tiny body and kissed the end of your little button nose...and shot a prayerful plea to Heaven: "Lord, let me dance with him at his wedding. Please."
My dear son, 4 years. I can hardly believe it. You have grown and changed so much over the past few months, and I am loving this stage of development in your life. You are just so much fun to be around. You have such a sweet, fun and easygoing personality, and it is always such a joy to spend personal time understanding that little mind of yours.
This was a whirlwind of a year with countless ups and downs. Every year when I sit down to write this letter to you, I think back on the medical odyssey we encountered together over the last 12 months and am always a bit fearful about what you will endure in the coming year. Regardless of the unpredictability of what this coming year will hold, I know one thing...I know nothing will deter you from living life as joyfully and happily as you can. You continue to face every single trial and fearful event with more courage and grace than I could have ever imagined was possible. The Lord has truly blessed you with the courage of a warrior, my brave boy.
You are a light, my son. People are drawn to your winsome personality and loving gestures. They see wisdom when they look into your eyes, and you speak to their heart when you flash your mini dimples with a mischievous smile. I love witnessing how God uses you to touch the lives of others.
My Nafey boy. My little love. Despite all the hardships, I am so thankful that God chose us to be your parents...for we have learned so much about love, life, service, thankfulness, perspective, and joy through the example of your precious life. You are a remarkable child, my son. I love you with all my heart. Happy 4th Birthday, Nathan Andrew.